Friday, July 30, 2010

Haha! Hay Harry Potter

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

New City Hunter clip is uploaded onto youtube





New City Hunter clip is uploaded onto youtube





Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I have to stop being perfectionists.

Being a perfectionist, I always have the urge to push thing better, in
my class work, in my life. This is have even becoming not appreciate
myself, more importantly not appreciate others work. Because of this,
I could be a very not-understanding person, which have affected my way
approach to people and have conversation.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Blizzard StarCraft II - Ghosts of the Past Trailer GLHF.it Fansite

Friday, July 23, 2010

New City Hunter clip is uploaded onto youtube


Thursday, July 22, 2010

Very Cool Body Dancing

Monday, July 19, 2010

Des Moines downtown open market


Sunday, July 18, 2010

The first time of becoming beta version tester.

Today, I received the beta version cd-key. I am so excited. Now, I
have the privilege to play the game before everyone else.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Dim Sum

Dim Sum is a type of popular Cantonese food. They taste good and have many flavors.

http://travel.tw.msn.com/Selection/Column/Gourmet/article.aspx?cp-documentid=4209002
http://travel.tw.msn.com/Selection/Column/Gourmet/article.aspx?cp-documentid=4209002&page=2

Thursday, July 15, 2010

็Ž้–€ไบบ is back (Super Trio Game Master)

If you are from Hong Kong and are studying aboard, this is for you.

http://image-7.verycd.com/3b940c54a82cae3a09a7bb08f15d2533171813/post-243762-1206792294.jpg

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

I am tired

I wanted to do something different last week, do something wasn't in my routine list. I felt to browse something stupid in youtube, something I like, is my personality, naughty, stupidity, men love, Asian fun. I spent two days in youtube watching clips. I laughed five years amount of laughing just two day non-stop. I banged the table, I stormed the floor, I dance my feet. My side crambed two time because I laughed too hard. It was painful. My heart's too excited, consumed very much energy, make me exhaustive.

Then, some good memory came to mind. Something I have in home, something I missed in five, something in Asian culture, Japanese thing that I cannot share with friends in America. It is a TV show, then I watch it all in once in two days. In these two days, I teared too much, then I laugh so hard, then go back to teared too much. Haven't feel like this long time. It made me want to rest, but I enjoyed the tiredness. It was a very touchy show, perhaps, I love the main character so much.

I can't tell you what the show was. However, whenever I watch the show I would love to become like him in reality, meanwhile ironically, I would never thought or would tell people that is what I would love to become. That is why I love that character very much. Something is understandable but not imaginative along. Such a good memory this week.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHXFiLBBUYI

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Harvard Business Review

It is summer. There is not much to write about lately. I just want to
say today if you have never read a Harvard Business Review, go to your
local library see if they have one or go order one online for a year.
It is very expansive magazine; it costs about 75 dollars a year or 125
for online subscription. I ordered them for a year, I love it. It is
mostly about business, but they are very good that they always apply
social media, leadership, and psychology in it. It opens your eyes. It
wroth the try for a life-time.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Picture Day

These pictures were taken at Kansas City City's Market. We stopped
there for a lunch.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Little Animal Friend

> Have you seen an animal like this? It was crawling on my wall on the
> other day. It definitely freak me out, this ugly thing. It crawl
> fast too. Oh... How big is it? It's big about if you put three
> finger together.
>

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Runner Necklace

I was reading a running magazine and it got my attention to:

tarmadesigns.com &
goneforarun.com

I found these are lovely. As a runner, it touched my emotion.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Avatar

I've just watched Avatar in DVD. The movie is great. Haven't enjoy a
three hours movie very long time. I am kind of sad that I haven't have
the chance to watch that in the theater.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

My All Time Favorite Movies

I try to come up ten, but officially I don't have ten yet. I found out that there are many sport movie than syfi and action.


Cutting Edge

Star Dust

Sin City

Die Hard

Bourne Identity

Final Fantasy Advent CHild

Casino Royal

Sophie Scholl

A League of their own


Aliens












Thursday, June 17, 2010

Dream and Language

Brain is strange. You might wonder what language do I dream with. It
could be both. It should not be something surprising after all the
these years speaking English. However, in my dream occasionally I
would spoke better English than in reality. Instead of Chinese
English, I spoke English English. I use phrases that I will not use or
think about. Then, I woke up I would remember the phrases. If I can
dream like that everyday would be fantabulous, I will speak well
English in no time.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

World Cup

Today news from Hong Kong talk about that it is usual in the middle of
the night when world cup is on. For support their favorite teams,
people do not hesitate to stay up late and watch world cup, which have
created a season of absenteeism. To make employee go to work,
employers are providing flexible time, extended hour of lunch time and
postpone office hour to adjust the world cup season. I love it. It is
so Hongkongee. It makes me laugh.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

My Temperament Test result

I did a personality test, if you are interested you can read the below. I think it is very accurate, in the same time I realize how much things I should change myself. In doing the test, I believe many people they do personality just for fun, but never take serious about themselves. Many people think that I wish to be like that person because he/she is good at .... Then, what happen, few days later they are the same. I think personality is a habit and they can be developed. 

The Melancholic / Phlegmatic

The melancholic-phlegmatic is tidier, more procedural and less flexible than the phlegmatic-melancholic. He may be slower to take on new projects, as the melancholic fear of new situations and tendency to perfectionism takes over. The double-dose of introversion, along with the melancholic tendency to negativity, makes it difficult for him to give compliments and make upbeat small talk. It also causes him to instinctively say "no" when he first hears a request. Others may perceive this as "snobbishness." Unless the melancholic-phlegmatic is very comfortable, and is surrounded by understanding long-time friends, he may find himself somewhat isolated and alone, unable to warm up in a social gathering. He is less critical and less grudge-bearing than a pure melancholic or a melancholic-choleric. However, the tendency of the melancholic to dwell on things for a long time in their mind, combined with the sensitivity of the phlegmatic toward interpersonal relationships, can result in long-lasting hurts, an erosion of self-confidence and self-esteem, and even depression. Extremely sensitive and possessing a longing for the ideal (melancholic), they are also highly attentive to what others need or desire, through their phlegmatic aspect. This makes them more than usually susceptible to anxiety and a negative self-image
This temperament combination is highly driven to succeed—not for success' sake alone, but because their melancholic nature is drawn to high ideals, and their phlegmatic side will have a strong desire to please. Thus, they are capable of long-range planning, organization, and attention to detail that makes them excellent and conscientious scholars. They are capable of pursuing highly idealistic goals, usually with long-term academic requirements, such as attaining their doctorate. They value their friendships, but can spend many hours alone reading or studying. They may have a tendency to hypochondria or to genuine physical weaknesses, as well as a tendency to timidity and anxiety, especially about new activities or ventures.
One melancholic-phlegmatic we know is highly organized, critical, slow, and dogmatically unforgiving, yet reveals her phlegmatic aspect in her intense discomfort with confrontation (unless she is very at ease among the warring members) and in her strong relationships with her friends. You wouldn't guess that she is so devoted to her friends, however, because true to her melancholic nature she rarely initiates contact with them – they always have to call her first. A tendency to avoid the stresses of social interaction by spending overmuch time alone—whether in scholarly pursuits or reading for relaxation—is something that melancholic-phlegmatics need to watch out for.
If your temperament is melancholic-phlegmatic, for a better understanding of your temperament it is recommended that you read the full descriptions of the melancholic and phlegmatic.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Some old friends

I met many friends when I was young and have kept good tracking with
them too. Many of them are great people, smart and beautiful/handsome.
Most of them like me study aboard and have a degree. The different
between them and me are that they are received full scholarship to
study aboard and I have to pay my own; they study in better and better
known school as well. I can't help but envy them. I don't deliberately
think about it, but some time I miss them and I will think this way. I
happy for them, because they deserve it. It just make me feel bad
some time.

Friday, June 11, 2010

AAC or MP3

I don't how many of you aware there is different formates of digital
music files. Currently, most well know formates are between mp3 and
aac. Mp3 is well known of its early introduction. I always wonder what
for matter is should, because I am an iTune user. Its defeat formate
is AAC. After a little bit research, I believe the conclusion is to
use AAC formate. I am not digital music expert, so I am not explaining
here. It is just what the result show.

Monday, June 7, 2010

July Effect / Hospital Malfunction

An interesting topic came across me yesterday. The topic is whether it is safer for us to stay out of hospital during July. They have a term for that called "July Effect". In England, it is in August. July Effect is a myth that mortality rate are highest in the year. They didn't mention whether it is safer to stay out of hospital, but it indicated that you could also get wrong diagnose and prescription during the same period. The idea of July effect is caused by new inexperienced Junior and fresh grad doctors . Based on BBC in England, mortality rates increased by 6% in August compared with the month before. These medical errors are preventable.

United States only rank 37th in the world, the bottom of industrialized countries, based on WHO (World Health Organization). The first is France. Most medical errors happened are because of mental error, blind spots, prejudice and lack of listening to patients. Some patients could have been treated with wrong diagnose for 15 years, which is very scary. I believed what you think of your body is always right. I sort of believing that (unscientific proved) human body has a high function diagnose system; it might not able to tell you what cause it, but it is never wrong.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Prayer Need

Actually, I started two three weeks ago that I began to pray the Memorare at noon everyday for my family. My mum, father and brother is not Christian.  They need your prayer. Please join me to pray for them. 

The Memorare Prayer:

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thine intercession was left unaided.

Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my mother; to thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me.

Amen.

Friday, June 4, 2010

PS2 on Mac

Sorry. I haven't written for couple days. I have moved into a new
apartment for summer. I were busying about packing and settling. It
took me couple days. Then, I had couple jobs interviews in Kansas
City, which have taken me a day. And the last two days, I tried to
convert my mac as PS2 players. After I found out my mac too ancient
to run the program. In the mean time, I was playing Super
Nintendo on my computer. I found several old games that reminded me
the good old time.

Mega Man 7, X and X3
R-Type
Gradius III
Contra III
Parodius 2
Gundam W
Super Boomberman 1,2,3,4
Super Mario World
First Queen


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Summer

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Vocation

I was in Mass today, and I felt the urgency to tell people our need to
pray for vocation. Priests are the disciples of Jesus today. Vocation
to priesthood is not for everyone, but we need much more priests out.
I read something strike me this week, it was: "it is not the Church
purpose to solves human problem". I wish you would spend few minutes
to answer this question your own.

What is the purpose of Church? What Jesus asked us to do? Live in a
holy life. No, that is the consequence of Christianity. What started
Christianity? The Church, the 12 Disciples. No. it was Jesus. What was
the purpose of Jesus? Did God's work. What were those works purpose?
To Create baptism and unit people with God. What is the purpose of
Church? Spread the Gospel, unit people with the Lord. The Church was
started with 12 Disciples, 12 holy priests. Priest and Church are
coexistent. Without priest, we would have no Church. There would have
no Mass, no bible study, no charity work, no communion, etc.

My school has near 2000 students, 70% of them are religious. This
year, we had one student decided to become a priest. We are luck had
one student this year. Last year, there was no student decided to join
the Church. Where do they join the community is another question.
Nowadays, family size are becoming smaller and smaller, it will only
get harder and harder for our generation or next generation to make a
commitment.

Pray!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Spiritual Growth

I was walking with Laura one day and we have a talk about how we are
different from the pass. It is my third year being Catholic, and I
look back I know I am different. I remember the first two years is not
that fun being Catholic. I would only go Church once a week on Sunday;
I might even skip Sunday Mass too. I don't know what change, but now I
go Church at least two three time a week. I also do morning and
evening prayer daily. It is so weird to see the changes. In Church
teaching, it said you are the new you after baptism, because the Holy
Spirit will dwell in you and will guide you to the Truth.

I sad very often, because being a Catholic is difficult. I don't grow
up in a family with Catholic teaching. A lot of time I will still do
thing which I know it is not right. I am kind of a secularism, and
secularism never work well with Catholic teaching. Then, I will hate
to go to confession. In the Scripture it said: do not surprise that
the world against you, because the world do not recognize Christ.

That is frustrating. The circumstance always appear to you that you
don't really have much opinions and there is a choice is easier and
there is one a harder one, by choosing the easier one which you might
commit small sins, and that always make you think that isn't a big
matter. I don't enjoy doing bad thing, but I always fall to that, or
I don't really want to face the difficult one. It make the uneasy
feeling every time. St. Paul said: You no longer live as you, but
Christ live in you. But, a lot of time we choose to turn our face away
from God. One priest said: We don't need knowing, but believing. I
don't really know what to do beside pray for myself and go confession.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Track Mills

I was in a gym room one day and was running on a Track Mills, where I
run most of the time. Then, my friend said that running on a track
mill is more difficult than running on the road, solid surface.

Here, I listed some pros that running on a track mill can provide to
you:

1. Clearer air
2. Constant environment ( no rain, no snow, not too hot, no sunburn)
3. Allow you to place water by your side, which help decrease fatigue
because of dehydration.
4. Softer surface (which is good for your knee absorbing impact)
5. Safer (No car and animal chasing)
6. Provide constant speed pace, which help keep your performance on
top in later run.
7. Provide simulation of different terrains or marathon courses.
8. Place to meet new people

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Me, Myself and I

I wrote something about myself. If you are interested you can find the new page on the right column.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

What is Christianity?

The movement (Communion and Liberation) and Christianity is connected, and Christianity and humanity is connected. Because we want to enrich our life, we join the movement. The movement is the educational function which regarding to Christian fact. The movement is what prepare us to become Christianity. But, what is Christianity? Christianity is a fact that God become man, and this man said "I am God." God become man is an historical event. An event that " I am God and I will go on in history in the visible reality of the people who will adhere to me and be united among themselves" What made the Church? Is the encounter of 12 Apostles with Christ, the fact, the event. Christians faith is built upon this fact, whether you believe or not. Christianity is the answer to life, your destiny. Since your destiny and my destiny is the same, then we are in the same communion, unity among men, which is the movement. The movement is the tool of transfiguration for us. Our life is to build up the witness to Christ in the world, unity and communion among human.

Note From Fr. Giussani


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Working Class Runner

Being a runner, I feel the urge to make people understand that running is not youngsters privilege. Why I am saying that? Because people are giving me an impression that it is great that I have just did the half marathon and enjoy my youth and freedom when I am still in college not in work, but what is the truth is that it is about passion and personality. There is million of working MUMs are constant active runners.

How these woman find time to run?
How they get out of family pressure to run?
How they justify their excuse to leave their child at home and go for run?
What is the emotion pressure when kids ask their Mum why you have to run?

Sometime I would think women are living miracle. Is it because they are woman? Tips I often heard is to run creatively and efficiently, and to change your living habit for running. I particular remember one is to sign up for mobile internet, so when you are traveling you can check news online; another is to bring your next day cloth to work, so the next day you can run to work and have clean cloth to change. I remember one day I was so busy and my day are full of schedules and I couldn't even squeeze time to run. I end up went to run in late evening at 11. I didn't really finish until mid-night. If you don't try to and begin to change your preceptive, you will never find time to run. You find excuses liked:

it is too late;
it is raining day;
it is snowing day;
I had a shitty day;
I am tired;
my kids need attention

These are preceptive in your mind, and you can change how you think. Also, it is why a household need and should have both husband and wife, so they can share burden together.



Friday, May 7, 2010

Will you take these study aid pills?

I read an article on Discover and it uncovers that 7 percent of
students in United States has been using drugs to boost study. The
drug called Ritalin, which normally is used for children who have
attention deficit hyperactive disorder. People who take Ritalin their
brain dopamine receptor activities will be boost, which increasing
learning efficiency and focusing. Lab test shows that rats had taken
Ritalin learn faster than those had not given the drug. I think it is
outrageous. It is a bio-ethic problem. If students can take pills to
boost learning, what happen to those students who don't or who cannot
afford the pills. And, I am sure about that some companies will rase
advertisement campaign to market themselves as "study aid" for
students. Then our future generation will fall into these pills or
companies. In the articles, it also points out that students could
also easily feel the pressure to take those pill by the the influence
of their peers directly and indirectly. I personally will not take
those pill to aid study. I won't agree this unnatural way to change
your brain chemical for study. It could become another future social
inequality question. In the last, I will never want or my future
generations every time go for public exam will be request for blood
sample.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Eucharist

I went to Mass today, and was thinking about the Eucharist, how
Catholics and Protestants think differently. I went to a Protestant
Church for two years before I converted to Catholicism. I remember my
church only celebrated the Eucharist once a month. It is because the
Bible wrote "Do this in memory of me". So the word "memory" is the
belief of the Eucharist in the Protestant church. I can't deny that
even when I was baptized, it took me a long time to understand the
awesomeness of the Eucharist. The awesomeness is that we believe the
Eucharist is the body of Christ not just a memory of Christ. The part
of the Protestant belief that was right was that we celebrate the
Eucharist in memory of Christ coming down from Heaven and dying for
us. He is the Lamb of the Passover. Remember that in the Old Testament
after God tested Abraham in the scripture God said he would provide.
God provided Jesus as the Lamb of Passover, so when Jesus blesses the
Eucharist in the Last Supper and says: This is my body, this is my
blood, he actually means what he says. But what the Protestants miss
is that they don't understand that Christ is alive now, just as in the
past and will be in the future. God's Salvation or Jesus' Salvation
was not in the past, it is right now, it is now and in this moment.
Celebrating the Eucharist occurs after Jesus' time, because it is
necessary that Christ died for us so we have the Eucharist to
celebrate. What was before then? Before that, the Jews celebrated
Passover by slautering a lamb. The lamb is the unblemished sacrifice,
the lamb's blood was spread on the doorpost of each home and the
firstborn son was saved from death. In the New Testament, Jesus
replaced the tradition by replacing the lamb with Himself. So, why is
the Eucharist is the body of Christ today? Because Jesus said if you
do not receive me you have no part of me and whoever eats My flesh and
drinks My Blood has eternal life. That host, that tiny circle thing,
is the body of Christ, which was given to the Apostle and is also
given to us today. The trick is that salvation is done once and for
all, but salvation is also happening now, in this moment; it is
happening. It is very important to remember that we are saved not just
because we choose to believe, but because God provides, provides
everyday, every minute. What God provides for our salvation every
minute is Himself, which is in the Eucharist. So, whether the
Eucharist is just a bread or is the Body of Christ you can decide.

2010 Miscellaneous

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Many mini postes

There is nothings big or important things happen lately. I thinks this
will sum up my recently life. One day I was looking for some religious
articles, it made me have a desire to start a bible study group. It
has been a debat in my mine lately. I want to do it is because whether
there is a bible study group or not I will study it; then why not try
to start a bible study group for students who staying campus this
summer. I think it is a good idea and like an adventure to start
something you never had before. For no things is: I am kind of
freaking out or nervous, like what happen if people don't come, if I
am a very boring bible study leader, what should I do if there is dead
silence in the meeting. But I thing there is the purpose of life, that
to experiecne. experience is to do something you never have. I feel
ten thousand of my questions in my life.

My sister is having a baby. It is an excited, especially to my family.
My Mum came from Singapore, her family side most live far away from
us. And my Dad's dad were from China; we had never really have any
good relative in Hong Kong. Additionally, both my parents were bad
keep in touch with people. So when each Chinese New Year come, it
become a not very exciting celebration. Normally, people gather
together in the elder house and meet each people. All our school
friends had relative 30-50 people at least, but our family only had
the most around 15 people plus we don't necessary meet all of them. It
was kind of desperate. I like children. Especially since when in
America, in Kansas, each time I go to Church I see a whole family with
7 kids go church together. It really made me feel family. Although
some time baby crying can be little bit annoying, but it bring
additional joy in the Church. I am excited about my sister, brother
and me starting a kingdom in Hong Kong. Hahaha

Last Saturday, I invited my spiritual director, Fr. Denis, had lunch
out with me. So, I went to internet an hour and search restaurant down
Kansas City. On the actual day when I picked up Fr., he suggested us
go to a Italian restaurant. It was fun and we went down to Olive
Garden in St. Joseph. I was so grad having my additional friend come,
because I hate driving and it gave the nerves all the time even I
almost having 2 years driving experience. So, when I drive I cannot
talk. I thing it is a good idea, but not that nervous. My friend,
Clare, who work for the school as dorm director and came from Florida,
said to me that this traffic is nothing. Of course not for her. Then I
said, this is why I need a girlfriend, so I don't have to drive. Then
Clare said that Vincent had million of reasons that he need a
girlfriend but nothing have to do with loving her. Of course looking
for a girlfriend is not looking for a driver, but it definitely it is
one of the the wish list that she like driving.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Luxury Sport - Running

I started running, like most people, because I live by myself and I am bored with myself plus the place where I live provide land, space, beautiful view and non-car-filled environment. I can go running whenever I want, just get a T-shirt, a short pants, and a pair of shoes. However, longer I run more time I spend on internet looking for running related articles, more I read more I know running. I begin to start aware of shoes brand, looking for runner friendly and safer shoes, runner friendly recopies and gears.

Running is an art; is a religion. There are things runners need to know. It could become a center of your life. I wear adidas cloth and pants. Am I being compromise by advertisement or brand name, might be. An magazine once offers 100 dollars and buy running cloth and gears in cheap place, such as Walmart and Amazon. The result is runner can find cloth with 7 dollars, running shoes only 27 dollars and socks 10 dollars for three pairs. 100 dollars, they can have everything needed to run. They all come with promising material, color choices. However, 70% are not qualified even to standard. They wear off only a few weeks, uncomfortable, non enough cushion, non enough support. They looks runner friendly, but they don't worth the price. I believe when you buy brand cloth, certainly you paying for the brand name but you also getting what you pay for.

Here are the lists, cost from running:

Magazine cost 13 dollars (optional)
Running gear (watch, sunglasses, mp3, gloves): 0-400 (start up)(optional)
Shoes cost 150-300 dollars a year
Extra washing (assumpt 1 extra load a month, each time cost me 3 dollars to wash and dry) 36 dollars
Extra/Better food and drinks - 100-200 dollars
Extra shower: ---
Run a race: (with travel, hotel) 70+ up to ($1-2000 international) depend on location
Potential get injured cost: 300-3000 (maybe surgery needed)

Other Non-monetary cost:
Time
Energy
Feeling
Emotion


Tuesday, April 27, 2010

What I lack?

I mentioned before I have joined track running once a week. Actually,
lately twice a week after my race in Lawrence. After that, I decided
to took three weeks off. However, it is difficult, my body and my soul
long for running after the third day. So, I started to go to gym do
light exercising. Today is Monday, I decided to go to run with the
team and have forgotten everything about that three weeks off. I
shouldn't run because my hip is hurt. Might be my body is giving me
unconscious desire to go, might be I feel it is Monday I should go,
might be I don't feel exercise enough lately, but most of all I think
I am a runner freak. So, today I went running with them anyway.
Normally, before we started we wait the couch make annoyment. While I
was waiting, I looked at these people and couldn't help myself wonder
what make these people run so great, why I don't run like them. My mum
always don't want me to run, because she think we Asian don't have the
genetic as the western. It might be truth, it might be the reason that
I can't run like these people. Are these people have strong bone,
bigger liver, might be. But look at these people, (you can't see here)
some are shorter than me, some are very skinny, some are even fatter
than me. Then Luke, my new friend met in the team, said "because we
have the commitment to run everyday" What a commitment! What is a
commitment? What I see their commitment is go to track everyday, train
hard whatever good day, bad day, happy day, sad day, crapy day,
running day, snowy day, freezing day, busy day... I even remember the
time when I looked at these people in a freezing winter, seeing them
only wearing very few cloths and ran on the street passed by me and I
think they were nut. I met one of the girl in a gym one day, I think
her name is Eliza, and she was training hard by doing light exercising
when she had hurt her hip. I ran with them in a evil hot day once,
people came back from breathing hard, sweaty body. Their warm up is
like my 75% effort sprinting even today. I saw people vomit by running
too hard on the field. If I train by myself, I will only find a
comfortable way to train hard. That is why I should go out and run
with these people, these are the reasons make me continue to run with
these people even every time I run the last and chasing them behind at
least 100 meters away again and again. In this moment, I don't know if
I am already having the best body shape in my life already; I don't
know if I will able to run better than my current condition in the
future. Might be I can run, but will never able to run like these
people like my Mum said I just lack of the genetic. I would love to
able to run like them. If they ask me will I willing to make
commitment now to the team and I will say no. It isn't that I don't
think I will able to run every day, running in a freezing day, hot
day, I just not yet ready to cross the line to make that commitment.
That commitment accepting separating of myself, my feeling, run like a
machine and accepting the potential to get injured. That is what I am
not ready for, and might be will never be. There is no shame for that.
However, that is what I lack to become a better runner like them.

New Breakfast Suggestion

A cup of hot milk (medium hot) and add 1-2 sponges of honey.
Bagel with Raspberry jam.

Friday, April 23, 2010

What's now?

After the well performance in Lawrence, I am still very hyper. Its just boosted my confidence. I had time between to complains that I could have run faster and to compete with other runners' result. However, its my very first half marathon I should be pleased. Since Sunday I was sad a little bit, because peoples were generally very pleased I did it, but no one really happy for me or surprise the well performance. Now, I am looking companies to run with me, and I hope I found one soon. With or without someone by me, I will still running, but just that I am tired of doing everything by myself. My coming target is run a half marathon in Chicago or New York. They are ranked one of the tops races in America. Of course, there is something hold me back, it is $$$. I wish that I will be confirmed I got the summer campus job for ESL students from Asia. Otherwise, it is expensive to register, expensive to travel, and expensive to stay in the hostel. I found some pictures on google, I hope you will excited for me and support for my running.